Kinda Sorta

Change is the only unchanging and in these uncertain times that’s truer than true.

We’re winding down to our last few days in this apartment, getting ready to buy a condo. It’s almost sad, like spending the last few nights with a pet you love but know it must be put down, as the humane thing to do. We love it here, and part on decent terms. Perhaps it’d be easier if we hated where we were and couldn’t wait to get out. Why do we have to have opposite extremes? Shouldn’t we consider ourselves fortunate to part with fond memories, and nothing but love?

It’s been 60 hour work weeks and almost no running. And then there’s freelance work. Then office politics, and people resigning on you. There is never an end, not until you die. And then, who knows. Maybe in that instant you’re reincarnated as some prehistoric slave (does reincarnation have to go linear with time?). The older I get the more inclined I am to think that this is our life, there is no after. There may be a creator, but how does that necessarily necessitate our lives beyond? It doesn’t.

But it would be sweet if it did. Without the bonds of my physical being I’d explore supernovas, the edge of the universe. Is there life on Mars? Consider that in this condition you’re no longer restricted to Earth (presumably), why stick around? Thoughts like this quite seriously call into question the logic of ghosts who spend their days lurking in hotel basements and spooking families who just wanted a good price on a new home. Why stick around?

It’s hard to play Metroid Prime when you’re even a little drunk. But Wii bowling was great.

I should get to sleep.

Getting There

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The first 14 miles I was impressed with myself and how easy things seemed to be going. It wasn’t until the diarrhea set in at mile 16 and I had to contemplate actually squatting in the woods that I realized not everything was as it should be. I kept holding on, waiting for that perfect spot, fighting off the intermittent shooting pains going through my stomach and echoing down to my ass. I kept my eyes opened for a nice group of trees I could duck into for good cover. Or better yet, a big Hummer H2 where I could lean my back against the driver’s side door and empty my bowels into a nice big puddle for the owner to have to wade through in the morning. At 11pm on a Saturday, running thorough the pitch black of suburban Detroit, the chances of getting caught were slim.

I held it in largely for lack of toilet paper, as the prospect of running with mud-butt seemed more uncomfortable than the shooting pains I was enduring just holding it in. I waddled the last two miles home and, at the last intersection before our driveway, spotted an actual roll of toilet paper half-unraveled in the CVS parking lot entrance near our home. I muttered “you bastard” to the air, as if in response to what seemed like a cruel joke from God.

I got home, limped up the stairs and threw myself to the toilet in back of the apartment. The explosion was so loud that Mae could hear it in our bedroom, a good 30 feet and an entire hallway away. One brutal, violent eruption and the pain was gone. I lowered myself into the ice bath she’d readied (per my phone call to her an hour ago) and threw back a Diet coke, an entire can of Pringles, a bag of Sun Chips, two Pedialytes, Tums and Ibuprofen. She sat beside me the whole time as we caught up on our lives apart for the past 4 hours.

I was well on my way to a record-breaking week of 50 miles running, so I thought “what the hell” and went for a record-breaking distance practice run of 20 miles to top it all off. With the first marathon a mere month and some days away, now is the time. Aside from the relatively disgusting chapter from above, everything went very smoothly. In a way, I’m half disappointed: a few months back I imagined myself overcome with joy as I crossed the finish line of my first Marathon. Today, after more or less rattling off a 20 miler, I don’t think it’ll be as tough as I’d imagined and therefore likely not as emotional.

In the spirit of biting off more than I can chew, I’ve made a promise to myself to register for my first Ultramarathon the same day that I complete my first marathon, if things go as easy as I hope. There’s a great looking 50 mile run that takes place in northern Michigan once every fall. With a little over a year to train for this, I think it should be completely do-able.

Why? The feeling of being out there, powered by your own strength and willpower is better than almost anything I’ve ever known. The pain that ensues afterward, the feeling of accomplishment. I’ve tried other sports; skiing, snowboarding, biking, lacrosse and a long love affair with skateboarding - but nothing compares with the raw, primal feeling of plain and simple running. Nothing provides the solitude, the time to think, the ability to hit a zen-like state and just put your body on autopilot. It also helps me justify the shit-eating binges I tend to go on every now and then. Burning 2500 calories in one evening leaves me with a Sunday of unprecedented overindulgence. And I love it. Many more reasons, I suppose. These are just the immediate things that come to mind.

I flip through trail and hiking magazines and imagine all the places I can go now or in the future. A 60 mile, three day running trip through Patagonia. A run through the Detroit-Windsor tunnel. Someday, maybe a 100 mile plow through the Rocky Mountains. Someday, not too soon yet not soon enough.

Running Over Water

We woke up at 3:30am after a quick nap, and suited up as quickly as possible. I was one of three hundred lucky contestants chosen by way of lottery to set off this year’s annual Labor Day Bridge Walk. Sprinting across the bridge, leading a crowd of thousands of walkers is an exciting prospect to be sure, since it’s not normally open to foot traffic and I’d get to actually run it. The only drawback, obviously, is it’s inhumanly early start time.

I sped through 60 miles in pitch black, avoiding deer and other vehicles - an hour and a half balls out burn to pull into registration at 5:28am, two minutes before closing. I jumped from the car, bid farewell to my Mother and Mae, who were doing the walk, and flung myself at the registration table which was already getting torn down. Not even 5 minutes later, our packed bus, one in a line of 5, is heading north across the bridge to the starting point, where we’re held in queue for the Governor to send us on our way. I asked my bus-seat neighbor if we should practice our sheep noises, and earned myself a terse chuckle in response. Minutes later I overheard him recycling my same joke to an attractive young lady, and I grinned with smug satisfaction.

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The morning marked the inaugural Labor Day Bridge Swim. At 6am, 50 fine folks lined up at the shoreline in front of us, staring across 4.5 miles of freezing, strong currents that would be their home for the next few hours. To put things into perspective, it’s almost twice the distance of an Ironman Swim. My mind began to wander into delusion, and I wondered how much practice it would take for me to get to that level. Behind me, some high school kids asked if there were sharks in the lake, and I silently wept for our future.

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The run started around 6:30am. Batches of twenty were released in increments, with myself being in round 2. It took about 10 minutes to plow to the head of most of the pack, but it was an all uphill run for the first half and I could only hold out that pace for so long. 20 minutes in I began soaking up the surroundings, finally realizing where I was: running at sunrise across the largest suspension bridge in the states. One of those small moments where you get a bit introspective. I stopped to snap a few camera phone shots, losing the lead I had on a few runners from a mile or so back, but I didn’t mind.

I cut it down another notch and jogged the last mile or so, more or less soaking up the surroundings. I ticked my stopwatch off at the finish line a few minutes later: 38:07 for a 5 miler or 7:37/mile average. Not too shabby for so early on in the day.

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It was mandatory that the runners form a tunnel of high-fives to greet the Governor, who was bringing up the rear. 20 minutes later I snapped a shot of the occasion (photo center, blue t-shirt), then high tailed it to the a local breakfast joint to effortlessly demolish a short stack and some eggs over medium. My mother and Mae wouldn’t finish their walk for another hour and a half.

I bummed around the finish line, watching all manner of folks file in off the bridge. A good 30% of them were at the very least obese, with at least 1/2 of those being of the ‘morbid’ variety. It was good to see them walking at least, but you can’t help but have horrible daydreams of the bridge caving under such great weight (50,000+ folks doing the walk, estimated), particularly in the wake of the Minneapolis incident.

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There were anti-war protesters lined up at the very end of the walk, most of whom were older, Nam-vet hippy types. It made me happy to see this, especially with a ton of soldiers standing right next to them. At the same time, I noted how absolutely none of our generation were out there with them, and again, I silently wept.

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All-in-all, a pretty sweet way to spend a typically blah holiday. I’d love to do it next year but get the time under 1/2 an hour. Possible? Maybe without stopping for pictures and enough practice. But when you look at what it is and where you are, why not just take it slow?

Dear Fellow Citizens:

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Me:
Q: How many things are wrong with this picture?

Them:
is that a laminated piece of construction paper?

Me:
I hope so. That would mean that at least those aren’t mass produced.

Them:
I don’t exactly have a Bible on hand, is that the actual verse?

Me:
With a vanity plate like “SRV GOD” I think it’s safe to assume he knows his scripture, however warped his interpretations of it might be.

Them:
in that case, to answer your original question, I count three.

Me:
The vanity plate, the sticker and. . . ?

Them:
the fact that it’s probably not a sticker at all… in fact, I’m pretty sure that it isn’t.

Me:
I’d say 4 then, since I’m ashamed that it’s a Michigan plate.

Oh. Canada.

I’ve got a little less than two months before my first marathon and to say I’m scared shitless would be quite the understatement. I’ve been doing weak weeks. Consistently under 20 for the past month or so. Sure I was sick all last weekend, and coming off the tail end of a solid month of hell-weeks where we eat breathe and sleep magazine design. But now it’s game face time. I did a solid 10 miler in a downpour today, clocking 9:52 miles and sprinting the last half. It’s amazing how many people run their sprinklers when it’s been raining for two days - can’t they turn off the autopilot and save some resources? Anyways - I can’t run often, so I believe I should just go far when I can. 10 or more three times a week, and short two mile runs on off days with Fridays off for rest. That should put me around 40 miles weekly, sufficient mileage I think, and assist in my efforts to rid my body of anything that prevents it from becoming a projectile.

The rule is, supposedly, that you need to be able to run 20 miles on a regular run - after that the Marathon’s 26.2 should be attainable with a little bit of adrenaline and what they call ‘race day magic’. My current best is a 17 mile trail-loop done a month or so back. In theory it shouldn’t be too hard to slap on three extra miles to that and then count on the dark magic. We’ll see.

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I bought a diamond ring, which I intend to use when I ask my ladyfriend’s hand in marriage sometime in the future, near or far. We were both vehemently opposed to the notion of diamonds, thinking a pink sapphire would suffice. Then we stumbled upon a fine gem that was right at the tip of my spending limit, and well within my moral boundaries as it was sourced from Canada’s northern wilds. We both liked it, so why not?

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We’re heading to Canada day after tomorrow for her family reunion. It’ll be a good time of seeing new sights. Enjoying some time off work. Being in nature, things of that nature.

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I don’t know why I bother writing these with so little time to do so, and so little care for writing anything of value. I barely care to spell check.

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FIN.